Two blessings

For the past months, I had been asking God for blessing. Well, He was really good that He gave me not only one but two blessings. However, I could not choose both of them. I had to sacrifice one thing over the other. Moreover, my auntie told me that I should select the first blessing that God gave me because this is what really God wants for me. She even cited examples and gave advises. But I disobeyed her, I selected the second blessing because I thought that this would be the best for me.

As time goes by, I realize that I made the same mistake again and I really felt bad for the second time around. I have been crying for the past nights and I dont want my sister would know what I really feel because I want her to look at me as if I could stand now on my both feet.

Wishing

Sometimes, I am wishing that I could write on what I really feel this past few days. I wish I could write that sadness conquers my heart but I am afraid that people will relate this to something on a person who is happy with someone else. I really don't know but I have a trauma ever since because I really dont want that history would repeat itself again. I feel that of this would happen again, no one would help me in resolving this kind of problem. No person like a guy named Richie would lend his hand to become my "temporary boyfriend". Hahahha

Garuda

Statues of God's in Balinese Hinduism are generally depicted with them riding animals. The God Wishnu is depicting as riding a Garuda. The Garuda Wishnu statue is also hoped to stimulate the dynamic of physical and spiritual values and the balance between skala and niskala (the real and unreal values) so that harmony on the earth can be created. These hopes are not excessive because the Garuda Wishnu statue depicts that real independent life can be achieved by being faithful to God.



Courtesy of Konsulat Jenderal R.I. Davao City, Philippines

Prambanan Temple

The Prambanan Temple is the biggest and most beautiful temple about 20minutes from the Yogyakarta City. This magnificent Shivaite temple derives its name from the village where it is located. Locally known as Lorn Jongrang Temple or the temple of the Slender Virgin, 17kilometers east of Yogyakarta City, the Temple is believed to have been built by King Balitung Maha Sambu in the middle of the ninth century. Its parapets are adorned with a bass-relief depicting the famous Ramayana story. It has eight shrines of which the three main ones are dedicated to Shriva, Vishnu and Brahma (all are manifestations of God in Hindu). The main temple of Shriva lies to a height of 130ft and houses the statue of Shriva’s consort, Durga.



Courtesy of Konsulat Jenderal R.I. Davao City, Philippines

Indonesian Consulate

My friend and I visited the Indonesian Consulate here in Davao City. It is the only Indonesian Consulate in the Philippines while the Embassy is located in Manila. Consulate is a branch of embassy wherein it strengthens trade and arranges diplomatic task such as pertinent papers related to migration of people between two different countries. Embassy on the other hand, is the house of the Ambassadors, who represents their country to the National Government.


This showed that Indonesia and Philippines has a deeper relationship aside from the two international organizations such as the ASEAN (Association of Southeast Asian Nations) or the BIMP-EAGA (Brunei, Indonesia, Malaysia and Philippines- East Asian Growth Area).


Moreover, when I had a tour in the 1000sq. meters, I realized that there was also a school for primary and secondary. The students were fifth to sixth generation of an Indonesian who were permitted to work or stay in the Philippines. Indonesian student would took six years to finish his secondary years unlike in Filipino students which would only four years. At the back of the school was the house of the Consulate General. Unfortunately, I forgot his name.

However, I took some pictures so that a reader of my blog would took a glimpse on what I also saw in that area. Furthermore, I will have to separate the “Prambanan Temple” and “Garuda” because these were the two pictures that attracted me most.

Gifts

Two days ago, a friend of my sister named Ann gave these gifts to me. Actually, we are not that close but since I and my sister are very close thus she considers me as her friend. Hahaha…I first met her because she and my sister were board mates in a house. Well, she now works as a nurse in Saudi Arabia.

As a Balikbayan, she gave me these pasalubong. Although I really love these gifts, I gave these chocolates to my cousins and perfume to my mother. I believe that gifts should be shared to everyone.

Loly

Yesterday, I went to Cosmo because Loly's coffin was displayed there. Loly is my colloquial term for lola which means grandmother in Filipino. I was really close with her despite of no blood relation. She became my adviser, my comforter and my friend all rolled into one. I used to remember, she would gave me pakapin or extra amount of viand whenever I bought in her small restaurant. She had been telling us not to transfer in any boarding house because the place that we have been staying is the cheapest and safest of them all.

But what I misses about her is that I made a promise that if I could have my salary in my second job, she would be the one who will cook my favorite chocolate cake for my cousins and my friends. Now that I was accepted in a job, I know that this would not happen again.

Well, I wish that Loly would be happy wherever she is now.

Afraid

These past few days, I had been asking God for signs and yesterday He showed or granted my wish. But, I didnt have the courage to face this particular person. I am afraid of everything. Afraid that history would repeat itself again. Most of all, I am afraid of the insults nor the pity that this person will give me. Moments ago, when I was riding in a jeepney, I couldnt help but tears fell from my both eyes. I couldnt imagine that all these things would happen again. I know that when I am choosing a path over the other, it means no turning back. However, I didnt expect how hard it is.

My Havaianas

I did not post his picture to tell the world that I have a Havaianas--- a brand of slipper that is one of the most popular in the Philippines. I just wanted to tell a story about this thing which women are drooling on it which is supposed to be NOT my first time to own it.

Three years ago my mother gave me money to buy Havaianas. Instead of going to malls to buy it, I went to Uyanguren Street. When I was walking at the third stall, a slipper caught my attention. It was not a fake Havaianas as everyone would think but a Shuta slipper which is colored pink.

Moreover, I bought those slippers and used them everyday. However, when my mother knew what I did, she did not give me money to buy any kind of slippers.

Piracy

Days ago, I watched the "Illicit the Dark Trade" by the National Geographic Channel. In my country, the Philippines, piracy can be related to Dark Trade. Piracy is the copying of any videos such as movies and selling them in the public for monetary purposes without asking permission from the author or the owner. Before, they were just selling CD's and DVD's at the sidewalk but now they are renting a stall in a commercial building. I really dont know if the government are against them or they permit such activity because it is unlawful.

Well, I am not writing here to judge or fight for them. What I only believe is that as long as poverty exists in my country, piracy will continue. People will continue to buy and sell pirated movies.

Blogging

I really love blogging although I am not a good writer. I consider it as one of my favorite hobbies. However, when comparing it to the other writers, I admit that my work will become a scratch or a piece of garbage to them. I am very sure that my professors or my friends will give me a 4.0 or 5.0 grade. Hahahah.. In fact, I could not tell anyone that I have a blog because almost all of my schoolmates and my friends are good writers.

This incognita blog is my third blog. I am planning to delete all my posts in my friendster account except for the "Another minute" because I used a personification or metonymy in explaining my feelings. I realize that blogging is expressing yourself without hurting people's feelings and emotions which I did not do on my friendster blog.

Wrong side of the shirt

I could not forget this day because I was wearing a wrong side of my shirt in riding a jeepney. I did not notice it because I was very busy. I did not even glanced in a mirror because I was almost running in going out of the house. An old man who was seated beside me told me in a nice and understanding way. Nevertheless, all the passengers in the jeepney laughed at me. I also laughed although I really felt embarrassed. Imagine I am now in the early twenties yet I am still uncaring about how I look in the public.

A new life

I want to start a new life but the shadows of the past still haunt me. I know that I should look back in the past because I owe them what I am now. However, I want to forget the memories that brought me pain. Sometimes, I want to correct the mistakes that I did. But how could I? Saying sorry could not undo what had happened.

English love story movies

Lately, Ive been watching English love story movies. Just like in children's storybook, all of them have a fairy tale ending such as the "king and queen lived happily ever after". However, this does not happen in a real life. In every relationship or even in marriage, one has to let go of the other because of some reasons. These reasons should be respected and accepted by the people that surrounds them.

Choosing a path

In every step that we will take, there are always two choices. Each has its own consequences not only in our ourselves but also on the people that surrounds us.

But before I choose a path, I have three ceremonies to do. These are meditate, pray and ask advices from my friends or elders. But, when I experience pain and hardships as an effect in choosing a path, I have been telling myself "Can I undo the time so that I will choose the other path. Maybe I will not experience all of these". However, I know that this is very impossible.

Well, I really wish that God will help me and guide in everything that I will do. As one of my favorite sayings goes "Fight for what you always believe in. There are no wrong and right choices. What matters most is how you stand up because of the choices you made".

Incognita

When I am creating this blog, I dont know what would be the title. Then the word "incognita" appears to my mind. According to Mr. Webster, incognita means a woman with an assumed name. Well, I certainly believe that I really want my page to be called like that. :-)